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my voices echo off these walls | Friday, August 15, 2008| 8:24 PM | jon

somethings are better left unsaid
some people just can't keep silence

lesser things said = lesser explanation = lesser misunderstandings = lesser quarrels = lesser unhappiness

her words echoed through my head, '... i feel like an idiot, not knowing anything. i'm not going to care about how other people feel because they don't about me. what's the point?' and, i finally saw the despair, disappointment and hurt behind her feign smile. my rant to her must've stabbed her a fucking thousand times. what've i become, am i still the man i used to be? maybe you changed me, how conveniently i shift the blame unto you - i've never blame others for my own plight.

her voice of helplessness and agony echoed through my head once again as i typed this very sentence. i felt her past mistakes, but she'll never understand MY pain. the greater fool that forgave the infidelity acts - ME.

take a minute and listen to my heart, can you hear my grief?
take a minute and listen to your heart, can you appease your rage.
take a minute to listen to them side by side, can you tell which is heavier?

i tried to kill it all, but i remembered everything.

the wretched.

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.About.

Name: Jon
age: 21+
Gear: Yamaha Motif ES8/Old Detune piano/Yamaha Electone EL-87/M-audio Keystation 49/ Absynth 4
Wishlist: Monome One-Twenty-Eight / Zen Riffer / Moog Voyager

.Mates.

jw
doug
don
jere
shane
steffi
yap xiong
rach
SCAT

.In my CD-player.

Killswitch Engage - As Daylight Dies